i'm probably going to jumpstart this blog thing again sometime soon but for now i just had a thought stuck in my head. recently i came across our neighbors on facebook and while i was looking at their info i discovered that they are as passionate about their atheism as many are about their belief in God. now, i've got many thoughts that i've been having since reading some of their comments but one stuck out to me.

he has quotes from philosophers and scientists, and others, debunking religion, but one makes mention about how with all the evil in the world, if God allows it, then he is no god, and if he chooses not to stop it, than he isn't a god and doesn't exist.

the first thought that jumped out of my brain, soul and heart was :does that mean that we are not humans and we don't exist? because as i've always tried to answer the question when people say "if God exists, why does he allow war and famine?" to which i reply "well, we exist and what are WE doing to fix it?"

i know that there are deeper questions in the "GOD" debate but to me it shows a want to point the finger when we blame God for all the bad stuff and it takes the pressure off of us getting off of our asses and doing something outside of ourselves.
heck, there are many atheists that live a more christian lifestyle than some christians!

i don't know why bad things happen but i do know that God is not immune to it. imagine that all you want is to create children children that you can love, enjoy life with, and give all of the beauty of the world to. and then imagine that those children became so rotten, so evil, that it was better that they be washed away rather than live on in their evil.

and imagine that again you bore a child, knowing all along that that child would be murdered. A perfect child, murdered, murdered to save those who were less than perfect. God did these things. God has suffered loss and hurt and unimaginable pain and so the last person i plan on accusing of standing back and doing nothing would be Him.

wow i'm sure there are plenty more of discussions to be had about this, but i just really wanted to get these thoughts out there.

so maybe today, try to love somebody new and try to love somebody familiar in a new way, just to remind yourself that WE are able to affect lives.

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arson at a church?

there was a fire at ridge point community church in holland township. there are rumors that arson may be the cause. police are looking for this suspect:

there's a certain amount of life that is required, demanded actually, when it comes to living. too often, too easily, we wear a groove into our days that becomes our autopilot.

have you ever been driving and all of a sudden you realize that you don't remember driving the last several miles?

IS YOUR LIFE LIKE THIS?

can you go days and not remember anything other than:

work?

your commute?

hours on the internet or watching tv?


where is the breath?

how is that living?

i suffer severely from this and it is killing me minute by minute, day by day, breath by breath.

i'm not sure what it is that i want from life, at all. i have no target career, no desire to have or not have kids, no urge to move across the country. so i don't know what i want, but i'm not finding it. and maybe that's because i haven't been looking, i've been waiting for it to be dropped into my lap. and that is embarassing to me, it's embarassing that i expect so much out of life and yet so little out of myself.

as my wife once told me:

YOU CAN'T STEER A PARKED CAR

and it is with that thought in mind that i am making a change. i am going to live, i am going to be. and i'm going to do it live and in person.

as the age old saying goes, life is in the journey, not the destination. and my journey has been an auto piloted, chauffeured, ride and there's no fun in that.

so i'm gonna hop behind the wheel and take control of this crazy thing.

i'm gonna go for now, but until then i'll be ............

What if Firefighters Ran the World?