sedentary spirituality

today was a really great day. at church, Rob was talking about, among other things, what we are doing with our talents. alot of us, myself included, tend to bury my talent and just try to not be mean to anyone (as if that is enough to appease the Lord). the visual in my head is of a soldier in battle that wants to win the war but doesn't want to fight so they just find a safe little cubby hole and stay safely until the battle is over.

that, along with life itself has made me realize that i am not perfect but to hold others to that standard would only assure that i would miss the point, and God in the process. so i fight my battles, some wise some not but all part of life. i have even learned to forgive others when they make the same mistakes as i do and that is a HUGE deal....something about a plank in the eye?!?!!

..get it...planks !?!
he he he


this sermon today added fuel to a recent fire in my mind and heart that has me trying to rekindle that flame with Christ. i havent felt "alive" lately. now i know that we aren't going to feel 100% energized in our walks 100% of the time, but i haven't felt anything. so much so that i've had a hard time dragging myself to church lately, even the fact that i used the word "dragging" should be some indication as to my mindset. a worship band that i really like and have their cd visited our church last week to lead worship and THAT didn't even motivate me to go, i used the excuse that it was new year's day and i wanted to relax.

but i've been trying. i guess i need to go to the local christian book store and buy an emergency kit complete with:
1- catchy bumper sticker
1- cute sloganed t-shirt
2- socks (complete with Jesus fish on them)
1- new bible (whichever trendy newly packaged version catches my eye)
2 or 3- new cd's (contemporary or worship, depends what's on sale)
1- bag of Testa-mints (in assorted flavors)
numerous- books to help me :
A) see the light
B) break thru the barriers that keep me from a spiritual life
C) become the man God made me to be
D) read the bible in just one year!
E) lose weight by reading W.W.J.E. (what would jesus eat....i kid you not )

now that list of things was a very smart ass list, but i do mean everything i have been saying otherwise. i really do want to recommit (i guess thats a good way of putting it) my life to Christ. marie and i both want to join the ranks of people making new years resolutions. it is our plan, among other things to:
put money in the bank
quit buying everything we see
lose weight, and keep it off
pray
i would love to finish writing a book this year
rie would love to write and record a new album this year
love
share
and countless other things that aren't coming to mind right now.

so let's see how we do.
i wish you all peace and love this year and more than that, i wish that you all would go out and buy the dvd's for Serenity and Firefly....you'll thank me.

love always, me