thoughts: you shouldn't be reading this

are you reading this because i interest you? or at least what i say does. or are you like me and sometimes you find yourself looking at anything you can online, just to stay online and not do something productive? if that's more the situation, i have something to say. you shouldn't be reading this. and i shouldn't be writing this. i find the internet is a perfect excuse, and a perfect addiction.

here's a list of things i have done lately and a list of things i haven't done lately.

Have Done:
gone to work
eat food i promised myself i would cut out
watched tv (nothing i wanted to watch, just what was on)
bitched about my job
bitched about lack of money
volunteered to go home early from work because i don't like being there (which i realize goes hand in hand with the lack of money)

Have NOT Done:
been very warm to my sister in law who lives with us
worked on either of the novels that i have in progress
stayed true to my diet
been patient with my wife
called either of my sets of grandparents just to say hi
spent time with most of our friends
been to church lately
haven't been excited when i have gone to church
been romantic with my wife
talked to God
turned off the tv
gone for a walk in forever
played a boardgame
saved money instead of spending every cent i get
visited with my family without having there be a reason
called my old buddy in arizona
been grateful for my health
tried to make a dream become reality
been a good husband
used restraint when it comes to food, addictions, temper
done anything to help another person

there are more, many more. but i wanted to make an effort to not let this post become yet another excuse to stay online for hours. is there anyone else out there that also holds a membership card in the club? can any of you make your own list of simple things that you neglect to do daily? most of the time with me it's because i am either lazy or i am arrogant and believe that i will always have a tomorrow to do it. i hope it's just me. i hope you all are much better than me. it doesn't mean we can't change. it just means that we need to.