reflections from the other side of the mirror

actual date: august 29th.
i found this draft that i started and never finished, so if the published date says early august, you'll know why

well, this is a month of change, rebirth and looking ahead thru eyes from behind.

on the 18th of this fine month we like to call august, yours truly turned 30. save the jokes and comments. i was looking forward to it. sure i look back and miss the different times of my life. but i only miss them because i've experienced them already. if i could go back and do it again, or have them set before me now, there is no way that it would be the same. different circumstances, different knowledge, that's why i can be thankful that i have the memeories that i have, and the things that i missed out on, i've stopped feeling regret and instead used those lessons to make sure that i don't miss anything like that again.

as my wise mother told me. don't live in the past, in the memories. instead, cherish them, but use today to make new memories.

so bring on my 30's !!!! i loved my childhood for all the innocence and harmless fun and simple love, i loved my teens for all the changes (both physical and emotional) that took place that would never leave my world the same again, and i loved my twenties for all the crazy times with friends, both sober and impaired, and the ability to find a wonderful, beautiful wife somewhere amidst all that chaos.

also it has been interesting that within 2 days of each other i have bumped into a couple of old friends in the crowded streets of cyberspace. and as i've alluded to earlier, what a wonderful time to treasure the past and reminisce (sp?) but to also make new memories.

and finally, as i've learned from my work, there are too many roads that our lives can take. no matter how lucky you have lived, how healthy you are, how many times it's been the other person and not you, no matter what, don't be naive enough to think that it goes forever. right now is all we've got so make the most of it. don't put off what could be a fantastic memory for the repetition of what you already have an abundance of memories of. buck your old trends, try something new, get in touch with the ones that you always say you should.

but most importantly, live what you have right now. for those of you that are interested, did you know that in the bible it's actually said that it is sinful to pressume that you will have any amount of time guaranteed in the future. it's not wrong to plan ahead but don't think that you are owed it.

what a beautiful world we live in, even amongst the hate and war and poor and animosity, we can make it better, believe it or not, just by the smallest of first steps, by living a little bit more and dying a little bit less.